I made many great resolutions when my child was born. Some were indistinct, if heartfelt, I'll take good care of you, I'll keep you safe. Some were particular: I'll breastfeed you for a few months, i'll never hit you. It was a very significant turning point, the birth of my child, filled with pain and many emotions. This was definitely something I would remember forever.
Being a mom made me accountable. I could no longer write things off as a lapse in judgment or a drunken mistake. From the moment the pregnancy test shot out confetti and flashed more colored stripes than a circus tent, my decisions actually meant something. I had to be responsible for my choices, and that realization nearly knocked me off the toilet seat, pee stick still in hand. Not cool. Being a mom also taught me to have patience. Patience with myself and others. Which became this weird paradox of increasing patience with my increasingly demanding child and a distinct decrease in my patience with all others. I am now able to wait calmly in the face of frustration or adversity. No longer getting anxious. Being a mom has made me a completely different person. My son gives me the strength to continue doing what i'm doing, before I cared nothing about going to school or even completing it for that matter. His smile lightens up even the darkest room and to have the privilege to be able to see it everyday makes me want to do more. I wouldn't change it for the world.
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Liz
11/20/2016 05:36:59 am
I love this! Congratulations on stepping up to the hardest job ever, and not letting it knock you down. I can totally relate to your feeling, especially how you grow to be a more patient person. I know it's so hard sometimes, but you seem to have the right mindset. Good luck with that little guy and school!
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Elizaveta
11/20/2016 08:33:06 pm
It is nice to hear that having a baby changed your life so much for the better, I believe this is the most exciting experience a woman can have in her life. I wish the best for you and your baby boy.
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Alexis MotonOn my blog I will post my assignments as well as any daily thoughts I have. As well as my given assignments such as my 3 major blogs, My Hiraeth, Four Academic Mindsets Assignments, and finally my Film-Based Project. I hope you enjoy! Archives
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